I started this blog a few weeks ago to spread a bit of the dharma via my thoughts. Now I don't claim to be a guru, but the path of the Buddha has helped me through some rough times. It's not all sunshine and roses, and I know that it doesn't have to be (see what I did there...lol). Still I try my best to accept each moment as it's handed to me.
The past week or so has presented a few situations I had a difficult time coming to terms with. I held it together well for a while then...well...not so good. I am still in the process of building my support structure, and the people I wanted to talk to made themselves unavailable. In the past that would have bothered me tremendously, but I used them as a lesson in tolerance. I know I don't have to let those people into my life at a level to hurt me. I do not have to be completely transparent. I do have the right to let their negativity pass through rather than hold onto whatever bitterness I may generate. I am the master of my emotional destiny. I can accept the negativity that arises inside of me and use it as a teaching tool.
Why am I creating these feelings?
What is the root of those feelings?
What do I gain from feeling this way? What is my reward?
I am learning to ask myself these questions when I being to feel this way. I am digging down deep inside myself and reconnecting with my feelings.
It was still a rough weekend, but much self reflection and a few hugs helped out.
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